If you could go anywhere for 6 weeks, where would you go?...

Hey guys!

If anyone asked you the question of where would you stay for 6 weeks?

Would it be:

Spain?

Florida?

Or even better -

DISNEYLAND??

Well I thought at least one of those places above would of been my ideal place to be ....but seriously like who doesn't want to go to DISNEYLAND no matter what age you are, you are never to old for Disneyland. Don't ever let anyone tell you that either!! Stick to your inner princess or prince!!

It turned out that my 6 weeks in heaven was actually in a hospital bed... The ideal place right?? I'd be struggling to believe anyone that admits they would love to stay in hospital that long, I would just call them crazy..

I have made a vlog about my story if you don't fancy reading it and would rather watch it instead :) 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ECn4uYxS4wc&t=23s

So from the 29th of March I went into hospital AGAIN! Never not in that place I swear??
Anyway I was in there till the 3rd of May .. to myself it didn't feel like 6 weeks as when your in hospital you lose any idea of what day it actually is. (Lucky I used the Blonde hair excuse) works every time!

Love these snapchat filters, they definitely help the time go by faster whilst in a&e.

So after a 3 hour wait in a&e they decided to move me onto a ward as they wanted to keep me in overnight due to the fact I couldn't feel my legs after collapsing whilst being at work. (in the toilet! not the best place to collapse)

I worked out during the 6 weeks I was in there I had been moved to 7 different wards by the time I was allowed to go home. 7????? It was very emotionally difficult to deal with everything that was going on, let alone moving every week to a new ward and having to deal with new doctors and nurses and other patients.

I was very lucky this time that I had met some amazing new friends whilst my stay. I still talk to them even now as some of them were in for longer or less than me,  but we managed to get along as it does get very lonely once the visitors hours are over it's just yourself and the other 5 people in your bay.

So after MANY MANY MANY  MRI and ct scans they finally had a rough idea what was causing all the numbness with my legs and my constant headaches and migraines. 

They decided that the next big decision would be to have a lumbar puncture done, or LP for short. This is basically the same as a epidural as what they had explained to me but instead of putting something in the spine fluid, they would be taking mine out to test the pressure of my brain and the fluid to make sure there wasn't any infections in there. I was rather scared of this idea as where they would of had to put the needle into your lower spine, I suffer from really bad pain as I damaged it during a ice skating day out.

Trust me!

Accident prone right here!! 

So 4 days later and myself getting worked up about the pain and what they would be doing, the lovely doctor decided that now would be a good idea to tell me that they was planning on knocking me out to do the procedure.... SERIOUSLY??? All that worrying for no reason?? I was relieved to say the least and so was my parents. So off I went for the procedure and an hour later they brought me back onto the ward. Then my families prays had been answered... THEY HAVE FOUND THE CAUSE!! I have never felt so much joy in hearing that there was something wrong with me, such a bad way to think that way but I was happier that they managed to find something so they could actually fix it!

Doctor came round later that day and told us I had  (fair warning, I might not spell this right)

 Idiopathic intracranial hypertension

For anyone that didn't go to college/ university to train to be a doctor. This means that the fluid that surrounds your brain is increased without a detectable cause. It affects 2 in 100,000 in a year. It can effect your eye sight if it's not fully kept under control and it could even make you go blind. Very scary thing to think that if I was to suddenly get worse I could end up blind. But they also said that I had

 Functional Nerve disorder

 This diagnose was due to the fact that sometimes I can't feel my legs at all and I lose all power to even walk on them. It was also effecting my hands and arms too. FND is basically an umbrella term that causes neurological symptoms such as:

• weakness
• sensory problems
• visual and speech
• cognitive problems 

It was a lot to take in that's for sure.. But with all the support I received whilst in hospital from my family and my amazing friends, kept my spirits up as I thought Emma you have to think positive today! YOU CAN GET THROUGH THIS!

 These are some few pictures that I took whilst in here. Sorry for the embarrassing and awful looking selfies your about to see.

This was my view from my last ward I was on. Best view in the house

 This was honestly my mum who comes to see me and says we are going outside to sunbath. Thanks mum for using me as an excuse to sunbath! 

This may be a cuteness overloud in this one picture!!!

BEPARE YOURSELF!!

My lovely cat Garfield I missed SOOO much whilst in hospital and my parents would face time me with him and he would look at the phone and could hear my voice and meow when he could.

Sorry for the long blog guys.. Hopefully I will get some more news soon and be able to get back to a normal life.

Thank you for reading if you made it to the end..

Love

Em

xox

   

St Paddy’s Birthday weekend

St Paddy’s day weekend away!

Well this year my birthday fell on St Paddy’s day! Just my luck! But that wasn’t going to stop us celebrating it! Which we thought it might actually make the whole weekend better!

So myself and my 2 best friends started our road trip off the best way -- WITH MAC DONALDS!! What road trip isn't the best without food. So once we got that we had to make our way to Battle train station which due to the LLLOOONNNGGG wait in maccy d's we missed our train!! :O we then had to decide which one to get next. We decided to drive to Tunbridge wells. Thankfully we arrived and we had got on the train and made our way into London! We opened the bottles of little wines we had brought whilst waiting for food.

We arrived in London and it was such a picture esk scene because it was snowing quite hard and it looked lovely so what does any girls do in the weather is.. we take another picture!

We then ordered an Uber (which I can't fault in London! it's such a great way to get around and not having to wait god knows how long for one down in East Sussex) Arrived at the hotel and it was lovely and big. So we started to get ready as the night clubbing started at 11ish but we didn't want to arrive dead on so it gave us more time to get ready. All dressed up and ready to go with our glitter in our hair and outfits at the ready. Of course us girls had to take more selfies to remember the occasion.

We got into another uber and took us to Clapham to take us to The Grand!

It was soo busy outside with the queues and we got past all that due to a family member of mine working then. Walking through the club and seeing everyone dancing and wearing green due to St Paddy's Day we was amazed how different clubbing in London was compared to clubbing in East Sussex. We arrived at our private booth which was AMAZING! it over looked the dance floor and it was just for us and there was plenty of room to dance and drink and just have a good time. So here's a few pictures of the night as I think pictures speaks louder than words.  (Sorry for any cheesy photos your about to see!)

WHAT GIRLS DON'T LOVE BOTTLES OF WINE!!

 

https://claphamgrand.com/

This is there website if anyone is in London and fancy a really great night out! They also do themed nights and bingo and a lot of other sing along movies too. Definitely a great place to go if you love DISNEY as they do SING ALONG DISNEY !! Now what adult does not secretly burst out into a Disney song whenever they hear one?? If your saying no I don't do that, 9/10 people are lying and don't want to admit it.

How time flies by!

Looking at my blog as someone mentioned it and I thought oh I haven’t been on it for a while to realise the last time I left you guys it was July last year! 

Saying last year is definitely scary as it’s gone so quickly and now it’s the 1st of April!!?!? Easter Sunday & April Fools in the same day, one day to pretend you haven’t got any chocolate eggs or eat other peoples and say you didn’t.. 

Well to say things have changed is definitely an understatement that's for sure, we've had Christmas which was lovely this year other than being poorly... But that's the usual for me so we wasn't to shocked when it happened, we still enjoyed it as much as we could. 

So just before Christmas we decided to go through with the operation the doctors wanted me to have but I was to scared to go through with it but we thought we want answers so that is the best option to go for it so on the 13th of December at half 4 I went down to the threate room to be put to sleep.. It definitely was scary to say the least as it was my first time ever being put to sleep and I was dreading it but within 2 seconds I was out of it and 2 hours later I woke up in recovery.

They make sure once your awake that you can handle a hot drink and food so they asked which hit drink I wanted and of course it was a Hot chocolate (who can go wrong with hot chocolate) and also a slice of toast with jam, and then once I ate that I could be on my way home and back in my own bed. I looked like a hot balloon at the end of it but we got the answers we needed and finally the unknowing of what was going on became clear and now we can work towards fixing it. 

So new year came around and things are great with the family and partners and friends.. And then the unexpected happened... On the 8th of January I was rushed over to hospital around lunch time as all of a sudden I couldn't feel my legs at all... For me I was in such a state my blood pressure was through the roof so the doctors said you need to go to hospital asap! So we arrived at hospital to go through all the tests and I ended up staying Monday - Saturday afternoon, it was such a emotional roller coaster as I just wanted to be home and I just wanted answers and they just didn't know what was going on, so come Saturday afternoon I was allowed home. Things started to pick up as I could go back to walking normally and then my wrists started to get painful and then I was dropping things too so my phone has a few cracks in it, luckily it's the protective cover and not my actual phone.

Then March came around and it was my birthday!!!!  🍰🍾🎂
I have done another blog post with my birthday as my best friends and myself went into London night clubbing!!!

THIS WAS THE BEST EXPERIENCE EVER!!

which I wont go into to much detail as you can read that blog post and it's completely just birthday talk :)